Why I miss Fan Fiction
Writing Fan Fic was fun. It was interactive and the response I received from the very beginning was overwhelming. My first story was tragically written, full of plot holes and an obvious desire to write about sex. It’s pulled from all the fan fic sits, you can’t find it, ever. If you do I shall hunt you down and burn your computer. It’sterrible.
I took a few more stabs at it, and when I wrote I Will Burn I was cranking out 1-2 chapters a day. People would comment as soon as I posted and it was exhilarating to hear what people thought, how they were invested and what they didn’t like. I fine tuned and learned about writing styles and pushed myself to be better. Then I wrote The Fragrant Taste of Rain.
Something about RAIN took me over. I wrote over 100k words in a month, posting everyday with a clear vision of my story and characters. It received awards, I got fan mail and art and more and more people were suggesting I try writing my own stories. During this time some amazing things started happening. Not only did I start to find my voice, but I found myself. As the always lovely Laxmi Hariharan would put it, I found my Author Avatar.
While RAIN is Fan Fiction and will always be Fan Fiction, the story grew into something beyond the confines of Twilight. It’s an All Human story and I delved deep into myself to write it. Of all my work, RAIN is probably the most exposed I’ve ever been. I talk about love and loss, I talk about friendship and pain, I talk about family and solitude. The story is as much about me as it is about Bella.
While I’ve written a number of Fan Fics (Walking in the Air, GrindCore, and a handful of One Shots), and now have published my original stories, RAIN will always be special. It will always be the story that taught me I could do this. It will always be the time in my life when I discovered something important about myself, that my art didn’t die when I left the theatre, it was just hibernating until I could reclaim it.
Recently, I finished a pivotal chunk of Two Moons of Sera. I wanted to post it right away, send it to my BETA reader and get it up so I could see what people thought. But 2MOS is not Fan Fic and I have another 25k words to write before I can even send it off to Carissa to look over for me. And it made me miss Fan Fiction. I miss getting my readers reactions as I write. I miss talking and emailing and posting every day. I wish there was a way to merge the two worlds. In publishing 2MOS as a serial novel I’ve come as close as I think I can, and it’s been oodles of fun, but there’s nothing like the day to day interaction with readers.
More than any other period of time in my life, the time I spent writing Fan Fic is a time when I was vulnerable and open. I was blessed to meet amazing women (and a few men) who supported me, encouraged me and loved me. Many of them still do. I count my Fan Fic friends amongst some of my best. Some like YNotJacob and Shawnie have become real life friends. We vacation together and travel across the country just to be together. They have held my hand when I cried and laughed when I drank faaaaaarrr too much. Others like ShadowLynx have lent their expertise and inspiration to my original stories. Two Moons of Sera wouldn’t exist without her brainstorming and encouragement. There are too many to name and the well of talent too deep for me to even try to list them all. Check out Tricky Raven for some unexpected sparks of genius and all around fun stories.
I’m slowly editing my stories and posting them on Tricky Raven. I may not write Fan Fic anymore, but I value the lessons I learned, the friends I made and the art I created. Thank you my Wolf Girls. You will forever hold a place in my heart.
If you’d like to read The Fragrant Taste of Rain, you can download the full PDF of the story here: http://ow.ly/dt6i2
Or you can read it on Tricky Raven, leave a comment, let me know what you think of it