A Muse by Any Other Name Is Still A Bitch.
Ahh the etherial, elusive muse. She guides the hand of the artist and leads us to the deepest well of our inner… blah blah blah blah blah.
She’s a backstabbing cheating tease who flits in and out of my life for what appears to be the soul purpose of torturing me.
It’s happened before. Remember when “Walking in the Air” went on hiatus? Remember when I completely ripped apart and rewrote DEVOUR three times! And that fucker’s still not done. Oh or the first time I started Shadow on the Wall for nanowrimo and couldn’t get past the first 20k words?
Well now she’s got her sights set on Shadow again. I write and I falter, the words won’t flow or hold together with that elasticity I pride myself on having in my writing. Instead its just kind of flat. I’m doing a lot of telling and not as much showing and I’m stuck! I’m torn as to how to proceed. I’m not willing to allow the muse-bitch to win this time. I love Shadow. I have something special, something precious here and it’s a story I need to tell, even if I don’t quite know how. So my choices are:
- Plow through, finish the round of work I’m on now to the end and deal with the plot holes and problems in the writing in the next round.
- Go back and work on all of the things that are nagging me as wrong with the story so that I can free my mind to move forward with the story without that weighing on me.
- Work on something else for a while and hope to rejuvenate later.
For the past week I’ve been trying #1, it hasn’t gone so well. Yesterday I tried #3 and pumped out a 9k word story, WITH EDITS, in one day. Granted is was just a silly little fanfic thing for my darling friend Candace’s Just a Kiss contest. Those are so much easier to write than something original, but STILL, it just flowed and shaped so simply and easily. And as nice as it was and as happy as I am with the out come its actually managed to just piss me off more.
So I’m thinking it’s time to give #2 a go. Today I am working at a clients (really, I’m working, right now, can you see me? Ohhh accounting! 3+7=10, the analysis of last month’s gross distributions is…) so I will let my muse off the hook and tomorrow I have meetings and other exciting work things to focus on, but then, THEN, I will go back and work on solving the problems I’m obsessing over and see if by fixing those things I can finally move forward.